“There are certain mortal moments and minutes that matter. Certain hingepoints in the history of each human. Some seconds are so decisive they shrink the soul, while others are spent, so as to stretch the soul.”
Neal A Maxwell
So, it has been a while since I have posted and for this I can only apologise. Life in France has left me with little time for thinking, but today I was walking home from university and realised just how lucky I am to be given such a great opportunity to spend part of my life living in a totally new, foreign place. In the lead up to my year abroad, things were not always so smooth, but I don’t think I’d have had it any other way – I have learned so much from those experiences already. Even in the short time I have been here, I feel like I have changed already, become more self aware, readier to face challenges but more sensitive to different people, and I can tell already that this year will be a big marker in my life. I think this quote also applies when it comes to the luck/ chance/ fate (call it what you will) of finding these opportunities, having certain experiences and meeting certain people. I know I’ve been incredibly lucky to have met some people who are now very important to me and I’d definitely call those moments “hingepoints” in my life.
“Life is a series of natural and spontaneous changes. Don’t resist them; that only creates sorrow. Let reality be reality. Let things flow naturally forward in whatever way they like.”
I think I am going to need to keep reminding myself of this over the coming days and weeks. Today marks one of the biggest changes in my life so far – my move to France for the year- and I hope that I have enough courage in me to adapt to and welcome the change. Wish me luck!
“Be wise in the use of time. The question in life is not “how much time do we have?” The question is “what shall we do with it?””
Anna Robertson Brown
Recently, it has struck me how little time I have left in my second year at university and although my Year Abroad is finally starting to feel exciting and real, I am also really sad at the thought of having to say goodbye to so many people who I have got to know and make bonds with. The biggest fear for me is never seeing them again, or not remaining as close – they’ll have all left by the time I return – so the only thing for it, for me, is to make the most of what remains. As I seem to tell myself often on this blog (and in real life), you only truly regret the things you didn’t do.
“You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you.”
In September this year, I head off to France for 9 months to study at the Université Catholique de L’Ouest in Angers. It is going to be an amazing opportunity for me; I should come back fluent in French and equipped with many life skills. But. I’m going to admit here that I am absolutely terrified. I have always been a girl who loves home, comfort and especially the people who make my surroundings the home I consider it to be. Moving away from everybody is going to be a massive step for me but I take comfort in knowing that France is a hop, skip and a jump over the channel and also in that I have obliged all of my loved ones to visit me haha! I think I take a bit of solace in this quote too; knowing that I can take these things and people along with me, no matter how far, because distance does not affect bonds and relationships. (*cringes a little at soppiness*)