“There is always a sadness about packing. I guess you wonder if where you’re going is as good as where you’ve been.”
I have neglected this blog a little recently, but life got rather busy and there has been a lot to process! I came across this the other day and I think it described very well what I felt while I was packing to move away. I have learnt that I am a very nostalgic and sentimental person (not entirely sure if its a good thing but ah well!) But nevertheless, I have moved and have had a few days to settle and while I still feel like I’m in holiday mode, I am feeling quite content.
“When you are sorrowful look again in your heart, and you shall see that in truth you are weeping for that which has been your delight.”
Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet
I have quoted this chapter of The Prophet before, but it is a book I have read again recently – for me it seems to be one of those that I dip into time after time when I want some philosophical viewpoints on something. And there is just something about the way Gibran words his thoughts that I seem to understand and find useful. For example here, whenever I am sad, I remember that more often than not I am sad about something that once made me happy. It can’t be so bad then, can it?
“I feel I wanna hold you, wanna tell you that you’ll be alright,
Sang this song today, it’s recalling your pictures all in my mind,
I’m helpless, it’s gonna get us before we get this, I wanna kiss you goodbye,
I miss you now.”
I Miss You Now, The Stereophonics
The wonders of Spotify mean that sometimes you discover a really good album and I’ve been listening to The Stereophonics’ “You Gotta Go There to Come Back” a lot recently. I just really like the tone and feeling of the whole album. It’s a great feeling when you discover some new music to enjoy (even if it is pretty old!)
“I’ve got my ticket for the long way round, the one with the prettiest of views. It’s got mountains, it’s got rivers, it’s got sights to give you shivers but it sure would be prettier with you. When I’m gone, when I’m gone, you’re gonna miss me when I’m gone. You’re gonna miss me by my walk, you’re gonna miss me by my talk, you’re gonna miss me when I’m gone.”
Cups, Lulu and the Lampshades/ Anna Kendrick
Just a little song I’ve had in my head that was recently covered by Anna Kendrick for the film Pitch Perfect. An old teacher also did this song in school assembly with a group of the other staff before she left; it was so lovely. A lot of these lyrics hit home for me when I first listened to the song because of the changes I have coming up in my own life.
“Promise me you’ll never forget me because if I thought you would, I’d never leave.”
A. A Milne, Winnie the Pooh, The House at Pooh Corner
Recently I have had to and will have to say many goodbyes/ farewells to a lot of people who are very important to me. I won’t be forgetting any of them anytime soon; feeling really rather sad.
“Never regret. If it’s good, it’s wonderful. If it’s bad, it’s experience.”
This is a quote I’ve had sitting in my drafts box since April 3rd; I’ve wanted to post it up for a while but I think now is the right time to do so for me. Regrets can be the worst things ever, ever, ever so I think this is a better, more positive way to regard decisions and actions..
“Be wise in the use of time. The question in life is not “how much time do we have?” The question is “what shall we do with it?””
Anna Robertson Brown
Recently, it has struck me how little time I have left in my second year at university and although my Year Abroad is finally starting to feel exciting and real, I am also really sad at the thought of having to say goodbye to so many people who I have got to know and make bonds with. The biggest fear for me is never seeing them again, or not remaining as close – they’ll have all left by the time I return – so the only thing for it, for me, is to make the most of what remains. As I seem to tell myself often on this blog (and in real life), you only truly regret the things you didn’t do.