“Come a little bit closer, hear what I have to say. Just like children sleeping, we could dream this night away… Because I’m still in love with you, on this harvest moon.”
Harvest Moon, Neil Young
*New-Favourite-Song-Alert*, well a rather old song that is probably also my father’s favourite song, but I can’t get it out of my head.
“I imagine a line, a white line, painted on the sand and on the ocean, from me to you.”
Jonathan Safran Foer, Everything is Illuminated
Missing lots of people and incredibly excited to be making plans to see some of them soon!
“Some folks arrive into our lives and depart footprints on our hearts and we are in no way ever the very same.”
This is something I’ve realised more often recently. There are people who I have known for years and years and they have inevitably changed me and my life and equally, there are people who I haven’t know for quite as long but they have changed me and my perspectives and feelings nontheless.
“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.”
So on my flight back from the aforementioned trip, I was reading my book – nothing special, just some easy girly reading – and I randomly had a moment of thought. I’m not sure whether to call it a realisation, or an acceptance or maybe even a moment of enlightenment but I think my trip gave me the space to see that just because one part of my life is over, it doesn’t mean it has to be an ‘end’, rather just a small chapter leading to a new one. For me, finishing my second year and going on a year abroad will be a massive change – and one that I have felt uncertain about before – but this change now feels like less of a threat to me than it once did.
“We are travelers on a cosmic journey, stardust, swirling and dancing in the eddies and whirlpools of infinity. Life is eternal. We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share. This is a precious moment. It is a little parenthesis in eternity.”
Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
This is a book I’ve been reading recently and this little quote helped me put things into a sense of perspective and also it reminded me that things happen for a reason. When things change and life moves on, it shouldn’t have to be regarded as a bad thing, but something that had to happen because it was supposed to. The imagery is just beautiful as well.
“Be wise in the use of time. The question in life is not “how much time do we have?” The question is “what shall we do with it?””
Anna Robertson Brown
Recently, it has struck me how little time I have left in my second year at university and although my Year Abroad is finally starting to feel exciting and real, I am also really sad at the thought of having to say goodbye to so many people who I have got to know and make bonds with. The biggest fear for me is never seeing them again, or not remaining as close – they’ll have all left by the time I return – so the only thing for it, for me, is to make the most of what remains. As I seem to tell myself often on this blog (and in real life), you only truly regret the things you didn’t do.
“When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability… To be alive is to be vulnerable.”
I think a sense of vulnerability it something I’ve realised a lot and often recently. When I was little, I was always protected and looked after and sheltered from the big bad world out there. You never had to fight your own battles or solve your own problems and life was easy. I feel more vulnerable now than I ever did, which is why I think I personally constantly have my guards up and my walls built – I guess I just coped with the transition of independence into ‘adulthood’ a little less well than some. You try to stop potential hurt and pain- and it doesn’t always work! Vulnerability is something that I don’t think will go away, and its something that is going to take getting used to.