“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.”
So on my flight back from the aforementioned trip, I was reading my book – nothing special, just some easy girly reading – and I randomly had a moment of thought. I’m not sure whether to call it a realisation, or an acceptance or maybe even a moment of enlightenment but I think my trip gave me the space to see that just because one part of my life is over, it doesn’t mean it has to be an ‘end’, rather just a small chapter leading to a new one. For me, finishing my second year and going on a year abroad will be a massive change – and one that I have felt uncertain about before – but this change now feels like less of a threat to me than it once did.
“You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you.”
In September this year, I head off to France for 9 months to study at the Université Catholique de L’Ouest in Angers. It is going to be an amazing opportunity for me; I should come back fluent in French and equipped with many life skills. But. I’m going to admit here that I am absolutely terrified. I have always been a girl who loves home, comfort and especially the people who make my surroundings the home I consider it to be. Moving away from everybody is going to be a massive step for me but I take comfort in knowing that France is a hop, skip and a jump over the channel and also in that I have obliged all of my loved ones to visit me haha! I think I take a bit of solace in this quote too; knowing that I can take these things and people along with me, no matter how far, because distance does not affect bonds and relationships. (*cringes a little at soppiness*)
“Believe only half of what you see and nothing that you hear.”
Edgar Allan Poe
So, we thought it’d be a really good idea to watch some scary films in our house and I literally crapped myself. I’m not good with scary films at all, but it’s true – the noise and sounds of films are the scariest bits! It is safe to say that I’m not looking at windows at night for a while!
“Don’t give into your fears. If you do, you won’t be able to talk to your heart.”
Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist
I am going away travelling in Europe in a few days and I’m not gonna lie, I’m a little nervous to be facing all these new cultures and systems without someone there to look after everything. It’ll be good though; it is something I want to and have to do. If I gave into that anxiety and didn’t go, there would be a whole lot of stuff that I’d miss out on, and I think this quote and that thought rings true for many things.